Southern University cheerleader dies by suicide after posting suicide note on Instagram

A Southern College cheerleader, Arlana Miller, died by suicide after posting a heart-wrenching message to her Instagram on Wednesday, Could 4.

The freshman took to Instagram, thanking her household and mates for his or her assist whereas stating that she was ready to take her personal life

She wrote: “Could this present day carry me relaxation and peace. I’ve fought this urge since my early teenage years.. I gave this life all of the struggle I had. To everybody who has entered my life I’m so grateful and I can solely think about how this will likely discover you. I’ve been surrounded by individuals who might have truthfully thought that I used to be okay, however I havnt been okay for some time.”

The faculty scholar then displays on coping with Covid, affected by an damage and feeling alone more often than not.

“I struggled a lot by simply this yr alone. From covid, to ripping my acl, to almost failing all of my lessons,” Miller wrote. “To the folks in my life I pray you be taught to vocalize your emotions and get assist all the time!!! I failed at that and I’m afraid it’s to late.”

Miller then talks on to her mom, who she thanks and reassures that she is at peace and acknowledges that she had written suicidal notes earlier than, however she was at her breaking level this time.

She wrote: “MOM, THANK YOU SO MUCH, I pray you realize I’m at relaxation now! You’ll’ve given something to see me glad, you’ve given every little thing to see me glad. I’m glad within the water the place every little thing remains to be and peaceable. I’ve written so many suicide notes in my life however lastly, I’ve reached my finish.”

She wrote that she hoped that this is able to educate folks to verify on their “robust” mates and all the time be current. Miller mentioned that she felt like she was letting so many individuals down and dropping her connection to God.

“I hope this teaches everybody to verify in your ‘robust’ mates, be current all the time! I’m contradicting myself however NEVER hand over!!! I do know that I’m letting lots folks down by what I’m about to do,” Miller wrote. “However… fact is I’ve already let down so many individuals all through my life and it simply feels insufferable. I’ve misplaced my connection to God. The satan appears to have received. & that’s okay, I blame nobody for this!”

She concluded her submit by apologizing to all of her household and mates, revealing that she has tried to make everybody in her life glad. Whereas she beloved everybody in her life, she had had sufficient preventing and hoped that these near her discovered peace in her determination.

She continued: “I thank everybody for all they’ve executed & IM SORRY IM SO SO SORRY. However serious about how everybody else would really feel about my loss of life will not be sufficient both, I’ve tried to please and make everybody else glad my whole life. I’ve been useless inside for too lengthy. To everybody I really like, simply keep in mind that this isn’t your fault and I pray you don’t discover guilt in my scenario.

“To my grandad… I want you have been right here to inform me I’m being silly, to inform me it’s not price it, however you’ve left me & discovered your personal peace.

“I’ve all the time been cussed and prideful identical to you. I all the time dreamed of turning into so many issues that I’m at present, however they only aren’t sufficient. I’m not sufficient. I havnt felt sufficient for some time.. however I say all this to say, I’m executed preventing. My battle is over and I pray everybody finds peace in that.”

The Southern College and A&M school launched a press release by way of Twitter expressing their deepest sorrows for Miller’s premature passing.

Her household have created a brand new Instagram account in her honor and are posting movies and pictures of her in her glad moments.

See one beneath.